No one is smiling at me like they did in Bali

Too many feelings. My heart cried when I stepped into the plane. My heart cried even more when I left the plane a few minutes ago. Arrived in Germany. 31 degrees colder and confronted with a kind of fear and the feeling that its kinda wrong. No one is smiling at me like they did in Bali. It felt like a flight into pressure, unhapiness and problems. My goal for 2020 is saving as much money.
as I can for escaping Germany as soon as I can. Only looking forward to the gym, to be honest. Not ready for university in a few hours and still another flight and a few more hours until home again. No sleep for me tonight, still wishing you a good night.